My life seems to be this giant clock as of late, constantly ticking down to the next ‘big’ event. As the future wife of a soldier and future law student, I find that my wandering thoughts often linger on the amount of days I have left until I see his face again rather than the dwindling days I have to prepare for one of the biggest tests of my life. Finals and gradation are nearing, yet all I can think of is how relieving it will feel to literally run and leap into his arms the moment I see him walking out of that terminal on November 23. I can only imagine how the women feel who are separated from their loved one by miles of sea and sand, with only a sacred call here and there. My heart goes out to them and I am in awe of their strength. It’s rough being less than a thousand miles away with at least a text or phone call once a day…
I feel like the White Rabbit constantly obsessed with time, my thoughts plagued with the events of the future with a fear of being under prepared for them. With my first real post of this blog, I thought I would begin with a post that set in concrete all of the numbers.
21 days — till Zander comes home!
45 days — till graduation!
193 days — till the wedding!
201 days — till the big move!
193 days seems like a long time….but I sure do feel as though a lot more needs to be done. This weekend, I hope to be shopping around for a great bakery that is relatively inexpensive. I feel a twinge of guilt at the thought of shoving delicious…fluffy…sweet….decadent…cake into my mouth, while Alex eats the same old food everyday. That twinge of guilt disappears just as suddenly though when I think of how he’ll probably eat the whole thing himself come the big day.
The closer Thanksgiving comes, the less stressful I feel especially in regards to the wedding. His leave is providing a great deal of time that will allow us to check several to-dos off the list! Also, did I mention I get to see his face?!
— Syairuh
